Hinagpis ng Ina na Naulila ng Anak
Narito ang ipinadalang e-mail sa akin ni Ginang Nanette Bernardo ng San Andres, Maynila at sinadya kong wag baguhin ang mga ginamit niyang salita at estilo ng pagsulat maging ang aking naging katugunan.
Dear Mr Rey Sibayan,
Ako po si Gng. Nanette Bernardo,51 yrs old. Ang aking anak na si Jose Leandro, Lee sa mga kaibigan ay napatay ng hold upper sa G. del Pilar St. sa may San Andress sa parte ng Arellano.Sya ay binaril sa puso at namatay noong 01-11 @11pm. Dinala sya sa Loyola sa Marikina sa chapel 1 sya nalagay at na creamate ng 1pm noong jan 12. sa isang picture nyang ibinigay ng mga kaibigan at nilagay sa tabi ng urn, ay may hawak syang cake na may 1 candle at yung isa naman ay nakaturo sya pataas ng isang daliri. Ang birthday nya po ay 12-08. 1+2+8 = 11. Ang matindi po nito on the night before he died, meron syang post sa blog nya sa website nya at un ang last log in nya 01-10 @1:01am. He posted the Let It Go article.
Napakasakit po ng mawalan ng anak na 26 yrs old, papunta sa kanyang success. Sya ay hinold up sa tabi ng bahay nya at sa tapat ng barangay office /house ng barangay captain , na lasing at tulog ng gabing yun at di nag lalagay ng mga tanod sa area na yun. Si Lee ay isang graphic artist,mountaineer, video editor at creative artist .
Ano po kaya ang kahulugan ng mga 1 na yun matapos syang mapatay?Ang tangi ko pong nakita sa kanya ay ng umalis syang malamlam ang mga mata. Nandito pa din kaya sya sa lupa?Ng sya po ay iburol nagulat kami sa dmai ng kanyang kaibigan at nag mamahal s akanyang iba ibang edad,klase ng tao. Nag iwan po sya ng magandang memories for us to live by and to cherish and treasure.Makikita po ninyo sa website nya www.bubuekak.multiply.com
sana po ay di maging hadlang sa inyo ang aking pag sulat. til now po walang linaw ang kung sino ba ang kriminal na pumatay sa aking anak.Paano ko kaya maiibsan ang sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ng isang inang namatayan ng anak?
salamat po s ainyo at sana ay matugunan ninyo ako sa email ko.
mrs. nanette bernardo
Narito naman ang orihinal na naging katugunan ko sa e-mail ni Ginang Bernardo:
Thanks for your trust and you told me the details about your son. My condolences po sa inyo and to your family. First, the only way to get rid of the pain is to release him meaning accept everything about him esp his fate. Of course ma'am, it's hard to accept of losing a loving and talented son like him but we can't changed it.....his life in this lifetime has ended. If he visits you in your dreams, try to ask him if he's ok now.....and listen to him also. If you see him smiling, then i think better to let him go....but if he's sad, you must let him go also, because ayaw niyang ma-focus lang ang life niyo sa kanya. He's just on the other side. For him i think he forgive the person who killed him because he accepted the destiny. Secondly, the 11 phenomenon I admit I'm also connected to that mystical combination of numbers. In fact, everytime I check my time it's always in that digits of 1, 11, 01, etc but now It changed to 12-12; 17-17; 15-15...and i could see a pattern of repitition. For me that phenomenon is a sign of evolving into another state of consciousness esp spiritual. Your son is into that path but unfortunately it was pre-empted in the physical because of destiny. I know he would continue that journey on the other side. To people or person, who killed him, i would suggest you must forgive him and let the Law of Cause and Effect (the law of karma) to take its course for him. Just pray for the soul of your son and give smile to him, love him and tell him, wherever he's now you know he's happy with the angels and higher beings in the afterlife. I know he still doing his part for human evolution and spiritual enlightenment, and he can do more on the other side that trapped in the physical body. Always believe GOD's plan has special purpose to us individually and collectively.
Smile Life is Beautiful
Muling lumiham sa akin si Ginang Bernardo at ito ang sumunod niyang e-mail:
Dear Mr Rey Sibayan,Maraming salamat sa pag tugon nyo sa aking sulat. I have decided to move out of our place and change our environment to be able to ease the pains we are going through. Yes, I have forgiven the people responsible for my son's death for I know God knows what to do and I have accepted my son's fate. Thy will be done, but my motherly heart sometimes tells me to keep on hurting and the pain is devastating indeed. I read a lot of books and articles about life after death . The best was when 2 of my daughters told me they have dreamed of their kuya playing with them , saying its very very nice there. Naka bihis pa nga daw ng maganda si Lee at tinanong ng isa why he is dressed that way na nakapustura and he somehow replied na oo, kahit ano gusto mo isuot pwede d2.And he was saying na kumusta daw kami at nadidinig din nya prayers namin for him. The other daughter told me na her kuya was saying to be very careful , to close the windows and doors bec there are so many strangers outside the house who wants to get it.My dreams of my son is always seeing him in blank face walang emotion nakatingin lang sa akin, but one time may suot syang very bright na damit.I like to dream of him again with happy face.I also would like to share to you this. After a week of my son's death, my bayaw also died. My sister was holding him when she saw a smoke like element leaving the body of her husband. She said she lifted the body of her husband and it moved again somehow. So she brought him to a hospital still panthing. Til he died. I have read in a book, then our soul or spirit leaves the body even before the body stopped breathing. So in traumatic cases like my son's or an accident, kahit na gumagalaw pa ang body at nag hahabol ng pag hinga umaalis na daw ang kaluluwa nito para hindi makaranas ng too much pain ang katawan. When i read this and when my sister told me her true story, I was somehow relieved sa nagpapahirap ng loob ko , na nasaktan ang anak ko ng sya ay barilin ng kriminal.Of course , I have to believe , otherwise ako naman ang mag durusa.Maraming salamat sa iyo ,Rey,
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